Agnes Dei – Alleluia

Sometimes it is difficult for me to find the words to say to convey a feeling or emotion so that it can be visualized and experienced the way it was originally. That is the difficulty I have now. During a recent time of worship at church we were led to the throne of God through musical praise. As the musicians prepared our hearts for time with our Creator, I found myself picturing what heaven is going to look like. As I sang Agnes Dei (by Michael W. Smith) with hands raised in worship and tears gathering in my eyes, I could only get an infinitesimal glimpse of what is in store when we reach heaven.

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I have found that for every Christian I know, there is a different expectation of what heaven will be. I hear many people express that one of the first things they want to do when they get to heaven is greet their loved ones and I know that will be a wonderful experience. But for me the first thing I want to do when I get to heaven, is fall at my Savior’s feet and join in the chorus of the four living creatures who never stop saying “Holy, holy, holy is the Lord God Almighty, who was, and is, and is to come.” And I want to worship with the twenty-four elders who lay their crowns before the throne and say: “You are worthy, our Lord and God, to receive glory and honor and power, for you created all things, and by your will they were created and have their being.” And I want to join the voice of the thousands and thousands of angels encircling the throne and singing, “Worthy is the Lamb who was slain, to receive power and wealth and wisdom and strength and honor and glory and praise!”

And I want to join with every creature in heaven and on earth and under the earth and on the sea and all that is in them singing “To him who sits on the throne and to the Lamb be praise and honor and glory and power for ever and ever!” And with everyone I want to fall down and worship the Lord God Almighty.

So today sing praises to God and know that he is hearing your praise. But also anticipate the joy it will be when we are in his presence in heaven.

Scriptures from Revelation 4 and 5

Welcome Home

October  27 is a bittersweet day for me. It is a day that leaves me kind of weepy, sad, and nostalgic all at the same time. It is also a day that reminds me of the joy of having Christ as my Savior and the hope of heaven. Eight years ago today my husband of 28 years woke up in a glorious new place, and sometimes I envy him for getting to experience what I long for someday. Then five years later to the day, and almost to the same minute, my Mom silently drew her last breath and was welcomed into heaven.

Tom & LindaI miss them both, and selfishly, I would love to still have them here by my side. But the reality is that life goes on without them. I have had bad days and good days, but the good ones outnumber the bad ones. I have learned I am stronger than I ever thought I could be. I have grown a little wiser and I have learned some lessons about life.

Here are some of the lessons I learned: Continue reading